TRIGGER WARNING: This article contains references to sexual abuse that may upset sensitive readers.
Cape Town – Earlier in the year Disney Channel star, Bella Thorne released a poetry book in which she opens up about her "personal struggles, relationships, and wild-child lifestyle". In it, she also details how her childhood would forever be affected after being sexually abused and molested up until the age of 14.
In a new Instagram post sharing a poem from her book The Life of a Wannabe Mogul: Mental Disarray, Bella talks to craving "validation from everyone but mostly men" and how challenging it's been to love herself in the aftermath of being molested her "whole life".
"What is wrong with me?" she begins. "Why do I always need Validation from everyone but mostly men... Everyone keeps telling me to be single, be alone, and make your self happy. But all those things sound so fucking scary to me. all I want is him. (sic)"
In the poem that she writes about "mommy and daddy and me and you", the actress says she craves validation because she feels like she's "just not fucking good enough". She wonders if her feelings stem from the fact that she was exposed to sex from a very young age and molested as a child.
Shortly after the viral post, in an interview with Under The Influence she said, "I've been thinking about saying it for a really long time. I was just very sad."
Bella said she doesn't regret sharing what happened to her and her manager told her not to delete what she'd written. "He was like, 'Is it bad? Bella, there's nothing bad about this. This is good. You are not any less of a person because this has happened to you.'," she recalled.
An emotional Bella said, "It was one of the first times someone had actually said that to me since it happened. And it really meant the world to me."
After her most recent post and the emotional poem that accompanied it, many praised the actress's honesty and courage.
Demi Lovato wrote, "So inspiring dude. And never related more. So so beautiful. Thank you for your vulnerability angel."
Paris Hilton also commented, "You are so open, honest and real. This made me cry. Love you babe."
"GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME BELLA! LOVE YAH!" wrote Patrick Schwarzenegger, while Steve Aoki responded simply: "Powerful."
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